It's been a tough couple of months for a dear friend of mine as she dealt with a very rare illness. Her struggle ended Saturday and she passed away while seeking treatment in California. I've been going through all kinds of emotions and questioning just about everything about myself, wondering if I could have been a better friend and person. There are so many lessons that I'm learning as past conversations and experiences with her are finally coming into focus. I only wish she were around to see I get it now. Yesterday morning, when I was feeling particularly lonely and self-critical, I walked out to my car and found a heart drawn on the window. It reminded me that even though I'm going through a lot of pain I have to make sure I learn from the grief and do what I can to be the best friend I can be to those that are still here and try to forgive my past errors. I think Nevada knew where
we stood better than I did. Either way, I'm here and it's now and I learned a lot. Miss you Nevada.
